I need to shake myself and take control. I need to stop letting people wander all over be top of me, and sort myself out. I'm so fed up of people constantly taking me for a fool but I'm also aware that my confidence is always low and that's a big problem.
I hate my weight. I'm not overly overweight but I am technically sitting in the 'obese' category of BMI's. I like food. Sweet food to be specific. I'm a total sucker for all things chocolatey and sugary which is my downfall everywhere. Slimming World has been my saviour in recent weeks as its got me back into cooking for myself. I've rediscovered a love of cooking, of homemade soups and curries and of low fat but delicious meals. Food always tastes better when it's home made. It tastes even better when it's made for you by someone else, but home made food is always much better than takeaways.
My favourite thing to do at the moment is batch cook soup. The soup I make is packed with vegetables. A lot of the veg I use is 'speed food'. Now speed food is a big part of slimming world - this is food that that is meant to 'boost' weight loss.
It works. I know it works. It doesn't teach you to diet it teaches you to rethink how you cook and how you eat. You increase vegetables, cook using 1cal spray, fry less. Generally tips that are actually common sense if you think about it.
My biggest slimming world problem is that I have no willpower and I'm always hungry. I could have dinner and 10 minutes later I'm starving again. And then I go to bad things - McDonalds, cake, crisps, sandwiches. Easy convenience foods!
I weigh in on Thursday at a different group from my norm then on Monday I'm back at my usual group. In the seven weeks I've been following slimming world I've lost and gained and lost and my total off stands at 4lbs. In the fortnight I've been away from my group I put on 1lb.
I'm hoping I can get back on track this week. For some reason my need for sweet things always supersedes my want to be thinner and more confident. Hopefully I can get that under control and sort it out and sort me out and be a thinner, more confident version of myself just in time for the summer!
